Sunday, June 29, 2008

Be Still...

This seems to be a theme for me lately....I guess I am in a season of life where I need to be reminded of who I am in Christ and that even when I feel lost in the world I am under the care and protection of God first and everything else falls somewhere there after.
Sometimes we get lost in the midst of our daily trials and tears and forget that no matter the storm, whether fierce or simple rain drops, we are covered by His love and protection. Many times it is in the storm that we are best at being 'still and knowing'.

Hill Song sings this song:

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hands
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father, You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
Find rest my soul,
in Christ alone
Know His power,
in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You, above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are GOD....

Friday, June 27, 2008

A song sings to my heart.

If you are a regular visitor here at Angela's place then you know that for quite some time now, I have been in a funk. Have you ever felt so down that you weren't sure there was an up any more? Then God sends a friend, or He guides your heart and eyes to a special passage in the Bible, or He comforts you with a sunset or rise. For me today hope came in a song and touched my soul. I am putting the lyrics here....just in case I am not alone in needing some medicine for the soul.
A group called FFH sings the song called 'Lord Move'

I can't find the words to pray
I'm a little down today
Can You help me?
Can You hold me?
I feel like a million miles away
And I don't know what to say
Can You hear me anyway?
What I need is for You to reach out your hand
You have taught me
No matter what You'd understand
chorus:
Lord move in a way, that I've never seen before
cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me.

I've looked everywhere to find
A simple peace of mind
I can't find nothing on my own
So I got to leave myself behinde
Take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto
Lord I know the only way is through this
Lord I know I need you to help me do this
Chorus:
Lord, move in a way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So, Lord move, or move me.

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with Thee
Cause I am weak but Lord You are so strong
And You know It's been way too long

Lord, Move in a way, that I'v never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord Move...........Or Move Me.

Update on baby no name

When he arrived in our home January 30, he was 5 months old, 13 pounds and failure to thrive. I instantly fell head over heals in love with this sweet baby boy. Even Dominique, who swore if I brought any more children into this home he would run away, has fallen in love with the babe. Right along with everyone else.
Well folks, here is a testimony to what a little bit of loving and a lot of God's gentle touch in a little persons life can do to turn a situation around. Our babe is now 10 months old, I took him in today for a check up, he weighs 22 pounds now, you heard me...22!! He is still lagging a little behind others his age but the doctors are totally blown away with his progress. Those words brought such joy to my heart. When the little guy arrived he was so lethargic, and could not even hold his head up. Now, he is so full of life and even has developed a bit of an attitude. Yes, indeed he knows life is all about him. Some days it is more evident than others, that God in his infinite wisdom created me to be a mom. I may not be good at anything else but being a mom blesses my soul.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

something to think about....how many diamonds are lost??

MY HEART



Never take someone for granted


Hold every person close to your heart


Because you might wake up one day


And realize that you've lost a diamond


While you were too busy collecting stones.

medals,tournaments, and awards

While I was in NJ,the kids received their awards in church. Samuel was made an Honor rainbow and received the Noah's Ark badge for scripture memory work. Elijah and Isaiah both received medals for Royal Ranger of the Year for their classes. All three boys have moved up to the next level class. New uniforms, new badges to earn, new verses to memorize. Amaris will be in her class one more year. Madison has 2 more in her class. So neither of the girls received awards this time around.
Also, while I was in NJ, Elijah had an award ceremony for baseball. All the boys on his team received a medal. Second place for the tournament is pretty good I think. He swears he will play for the Yankees one day....we will see. Funny thing about Elijah, Baseball is his 'first favorite' sport.
here is our conversation the day before I left for NJ.
mom: Elijah mommy is going to sign you up for flag football, you will play on Christian's team.
Elijah: oh
then he leaves and I hear him crying under Isaiah's bed.
mom: hey buddy why are you crying?
Elijah: I don't want to quit baseball to play football, baseball is my first favorite thing to do.
When I finally got him to understand that every sport has its own season he was quite happy to be signed up for football. Funny boy.
Tonight was the night for Isaiah's golf tournament but because of the heavy rains and storms we have been having for the past 24 hours it was postponed until Monday night.
This was a small relief to me because I am still not feeling well after my trip and sitting in a golf cart holding the baby cheering him on *(silently of course) was definitely not on my top 10 list for the day. I am sure I will feel better by Monday.

Rear view mirrors

Rear view mirrors are meant for viewing things behind you when driving a vehicle. It is funny how some objects become metaphors for life. We all have rear view mirrors in our lives, some views are fantastic, some are beautiful, comforting loving views. Others are painful, regretful and the whole 'what if' game begins to play in your head.

No matter what you may be seeing in your rear view mirror the important thing to try and remember is that it is what it is, you can't go back in time and change things for the better. You can't go back and erase the pain, you can't go back and relive the wonderful. You can use the rear view mirror of life to strengthen your character and make you into a new creation. Be a better you than you were when the rear view was the front view. Embrace the view from all directions. Use it to learn stretch and grow you into a better, more loving person than you were before you looked into the mirror. If you can't be strong enough to grow from the view then maybe you should quit looking in the mirrors of your life.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

An update of sorts.

The baby: we are now in the waiting phase of the appeal process. We should get the final word on adoption sometime in the next couple weeks.
Samuel: What a struggle. I have never had such a difficult time figuring out how to deal with attitude and behavior. I am beginning to wonder if there isn't something else going on with him that is interfering with his ability to obey. Maybe going to school in the fall will help. I have placed this issue in God's hands. I only hope he gives me some wisdom in this area before I lose what is left of my mind.
Amaris: The summer bug has surely bitten this sweet little one on the butt. I don't know where the bossy butt attitude came from. She has gotten a wee bit big for her britches lately. We are working on mouth issues and how to treat our brothers and sister.
Elijah: Just finished his base ball season. His team made it all the way to the tournament this year. They won their first tournament game and moved onto Saturday games. Unfortunately they lost that one. What a season they have had. His team has some good developing talent. The boys play really well together. He is struggling as the family 'informer' translation tattle tale. Ok, that drives me nuts. I am beginning to feel like Mrs. Piggle Wiggle searching for cures of these childhood ailments.
Isaiah: Had his last golf lesson of the season Monday night and will play in the tournament Thursday night. He has really enjoyed lessons this year. He also had VERY good news at the hospital in May. I know I have been awful at updating. I just have been in a deep funk lately and not felt like communicating with anyone in the last several months. I will try to get better.
NO SURGERY THIS SUMMER. YEAH! We are very excited about this. His cyst has stabilized so we will continue to monitor the situation as we have been and keep up with all his therapy, Dominique is so good at working with him. ALSO....Isaiah has actually grown 2 inches in the last year. A total miracle since the last we were told was a year ago and he was done growing. So, we get to wait. And this time folks....I am OK about the wait. All things considered, God is beginning a miracle healing in my boys body and I am believing for the completion of that miracle. Please believe with me and carry him to the throne when you pray.
Madison: Has had a rough start to her summer. However with our support and God's gentle hands upon her she will be OK. I wish I could tell all she has been through but....that would not be a good idea. Just pray for her, she has a long road of healing in front of her. But, the good news is her future is looking a bit brighter.
Dominique: Graduated....boohoo! Turned 18, got a tattoo, what else is there in life for a young man? But seriously, he is doing really well. Looking forward to college, Boo Hoo again! He and I just returned from an amazing trip back home to New Jersey. We had many good times and will cherish every moment shared with family and friends from a lifetime past. we stayed with my brother Nathan and his girlfriend Sun. It was so good to spend time with them too. The wedding was incredible. I hope to have some pictures soon.
The only bad thing I can think of from the entire trip is Sunday, my hip started bothering me again and today after flying it is really hurting alot. I do not want to go back to the doctor...shots??? I DON'T THINK SO!!! I will wait it out as long as possible before I call the old Doc!
That is the quick fast and in a hurry version of the update from here. Thanks for stopping by.
Pray.......

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Something to ponder....

A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE SENT THIS TO ME IN AN E-MAIL TODAY. ALTHOUGH I HAVE NOT FELT UP TO BLOGGIONG LATELY. QUITE HONESTLY I HAVE HAD LITTLE NICE TO SAY SO RATHER THAN OFFEND I HAVE CHOSEN TO TAKE A BREAK. THIS HOWEVER, IS WORTH READING!!!
I WILL BE BACK IN BLOGVILLE SOON....I HOPE, WHEN I HAVE A PEACEFUL HEART AND SOMETHING NICE TO SAY.....UNTIL THEN THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.

What a difference a sad event in someone's life makes. GEORGE CARLIN (His wife recently died...) Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.
A Message by George Carlin: The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stock room. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...